I just don't Want to lose This...

Keep them longer, 'cause sometimes they wear out from my mind...

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Raining

Once again the rain fall today

Some windows become dewy

And the air become cold


Therefore, I decide to stand up

Walk outside to terrace

Here I stand-alone

Stare at the sky

If I can, I want to say something

But, I can't

Though that just some simple words


"I am happy you come

Love the way you appear

and the way you affect me

but please do not come now

this is not the right time

I am happy, but at the same time

I feel this is wrong

you just make me sad"


The rain will not hear me

Or understand me

Hopeless


I stop stare at the sky

However, try to understand other

There are not only me who is affected

Look at some trees, grasses and frogs

They just let it be

Or maybe enjoy it

But I am different

This is not my turn


Exhale

This is hard for me to decide

I feel envy of those who can enjoy it

Do not know why I hold up too much

This is just rain

So I ask myself

How about if I feel it a little

Good Idea


Pull out one of my hands

Again, I try to decide

Is this right?

I do not know

Just try to feel it a bit

Therefore, I stretch my hand

And I let my hand wet


It feel good tough just a moment

I smile to my wet hand

This is good, right


Suddenly I realize

This is not my turn

The rain does not come for me

However, I am affected

Now I know the right

I should not get out

I belong inside with the ones I love

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn

The Run of Mind

Said some words without thinking
while my both hands were trembling

Great feeling fall upon me
Force me on my knees
The feeling still struck me
But it can't hurt me physically
I can't find which part I had been struck
Still that hurt me but not physically

The longer I have been struck
The more I came to the darkness
Darkness where all colors gathered

I was in home, I loved it, but I worried
Every step makes me falling one level
deeper and deeper
I feared
I wont open my eyes
It hurts me
The chill would consume me till I came to the abyss

My deepest heart, it fades along the time
When that burden was completely calm
I would open my eyes

I'm tired
But my hands are still trembling at a time
Now, what can I do is just waiting
Until my heart will be awaken again

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn

I Want You Back

The gleaming sky still in your sight
Here you will make a wish
Face the sun and close your eyes
Let your soul bring the cries
Here the wind make you sing

"Here I wrote for you
Something I can't tell you directly
My immense heart
Too melancholy
Can't hold it anymore
Hwaahhh....
Please, please
Give your soul to me
Unless I will gone..."

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn