Raining

Once again the rain fall today

Some windows become dewy

And the air become cold

Therefore, I decide to stand up

Walk outside to terrace

Here I stand-alone

Stare at the sky

If I can, I want to say something

But, I can't

Though that just some simple words

"I am happy you come

Love the way you appear

and the way you affect me

but please do not come now

this is not the right time

I am happy, but at the same time

I feel this is wrong

you just make me sad"

The rain will not hear me

Or understand me

Hopeless

I stop stare at the sky

However, try to understand other

There are not only me who is affected

Look at some trees, grasses and frogs

They just let it be

Or maybe enjoy it

But I am different

This is not my turn

Exhale

This is hard for me to decide

I feel envy of those who can enjoy it

Do not know why I hold up too much

This is just rain

So I ask myself

How about if I feel it a little

Good Idea

Pull out one of my hands

Again, I try to decide

Is this right?

I do not know

Just try to feel it a bit

Therefore, I stretch my hand

And I let my hand wet

It feel good tough just a moment

I smile to my wet hand

This is good, right

Suddenly I realize

This is not my turn

The rain does not come for me

However, I am affected

Now I know the right

I should not get out

I belong inside with the ones I love

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn

The Run of Mind

Said some words without thinking

while my both hands were trembling

Great feeling fall upon me

Force me on my knees

The feeling still struck me

But it can't hurt me physically

I can't find which part I had been struck

Still that hurt me but not physically

The longer I have been struck

The more I came to the darkness

Darkness where all colors gathered

I was in home, I loved it, but I worried

Every step makes me falling one level

deeper and deeper

I feared

I wont open my eyes

It hurts me

The chill would consume me till I came to the abyss

My deepest heart, it fades along the time

When that burden was completely calm

I would open my eyes

I'm tired

But my hands are still trembling at a time

Now, what can I do is just waiting

Until my heart will be awaken again

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn

I Want You Back

The gleaming sky still in your sight

Here you will make a wish

Face the sun and close your eyes

Let your soul bring the cries

Here the wind make you sing

"Here I wrote for you

Something I can't tell you directly

My immense heart

Too melancholy

Can't hold it anymore

Hwaahhh....

Please, please

Give your soul to me

Unless I will gone..."

By Tola Augusta Jufany the Artumn